the return

There has been a longing, unyielding
An emptiness, unceasing
Resting in the place you once were

An emptiness that clouds my eyes
A longing, ever growing in size
Festering since our affair

I left you in pain, with no way to cope
I left you in anger, but mostly with hope
That for once you would come to me

I waited for years upon years
I shed millions of tears
When I saw what would never again be

I come back to you now in defeat
Embarrassed by my gall and conceit
Only wanting to rest in your shadow

With unconditional love, I come back to you
With an unquenchable desire, I beg you
To let this colloquial conversation grow

Knowing the pain of losing you
And the torment that would ensue
I hold onto you with intensity

I come from you, I return to you
I belong to you, so I live for you
That is all that matters to me

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It's been a long time
How have you been?
Empty.
I see.

...

I'm sorry
What for?
I left you
You're here now.
Do you hate me?
I don't hate.
Do you love?
I am love.

...

I hate myself.
You shouldn't.
I miss you.
That's good.
Can I come back?
You are always welcome.

...

I have too many questions.
Ask me.
But you never answer me!
Because you already know the answers.
What does that even mean?
You know that too.
All I know is that there is no right and no wrong and nothing matters.
Ok.
Am I right?
Sure.
Am I wrong?
Sure.

...


This is why I can't do this.
Can't do what?
I need something clear, defined, absolute
Why?
Because...
Just be
Just be?
Just be. And don't oppress my people.
Ok.
That incudes yourself.
Ok.
That's all you need to worry about.
Ok.
Ok.
Thank you.
You are welcome, my child.
Am I your child?
Always.